I have been a diabetic for over 12 years now but have never really altered my life the way I should. I am starting this blog as a way to try and hold myself accountable. I know that this blog may not be of any interest to the majority but if you should take the time to read it please leave a comment with an encouraging word or a kick up the bum depending on the need at the time.



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Thursday, 28 July 2011

Thursday 28th July 2011

So it's been over a month since I last posted and I'd love to say it's because I have been in control of my diabetes but the exact opposite is true.  I've maybe tested my blood twice in that time.  When my insulin pump runs out it is taking me far too long to change it.  I've regained all the weight I lost from when I was ill and there are days when all I do is eat rubbish.

Why can't I get my head around this.  I know what I need to do and can't understand why I can't do it.  It's the same with my weight I know what I shouldn't be eating but I keep shovelling it in.

I'm going to try again but I'm not making any promises anymore I feel like I'm letting people down.  All the support I got initially with this blog has dwindled and I am sure it's because people are thinking for goodness sake this is just the same thing over and over again.  There has been no improvement since I started but then there has been no improvement since I was diagnosed 11 years ago!

All I can say again is that I'm going to try.

5 comments:

Sandra said...

You'll get there babe. We all believe in you and that you can do it.
Ring me anytime if you want to chat or rant I donn't mind sometimes it helps.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Sandy

Emma said...

positive thoughts are we you, Nicola you can do it

Emma said...

positive thoughts are with you Nicola, Good Luck

Kylie said...

Right. What do you need me to do? Put us to use. Do we need to encourage? Remind? Nag?

Why don't you post your blood sugar readings every morning for a week. If you don't post, I'll nag. Come on, you know for your long term health you need to do this.

Do you want diabetic retinopathy? Do you want to lose a limb to gangrene?

You NEED to get with the program!

I think your inertia is all tied up with your moods and self esteem. You are IMPORTANT and you DESERVE to live a long happy life. Come on lady!

Nic said...

Thank you so much everyone. I will post my blood sugars on facebook everyday this week - I can't always get online in the morning but if I haven't posted by about 6pm you can nag away :-)

Thanks for your words of support they were really needed today xx