Thursday 28th July 2011

So it's been over a month since I last posted and I'd love to say it's because I have been in control of my diabetes but the exact opposite is true.  I've maybe tested my blood twice in that time.  When my insulin pump runs out it is taking me far too long to change it.  I've regained all the weight I lost from when I was ill and there are days when all I do is eat rubbish.

Why can't I get my head around this.  I know what I need to do and can't understand why I can't do it.  It's the same with my weight I know what I shouldn't be eating but I keep shovelling it in.

I'm going to try again but I'm not making any promises anymore I feel like I'm letting people down.  All the support I got initially with this blog has dwindled and I am sure it's because people are thinking for goodness sake this is just the same thing over and over again.  There has been no improvement since I started but then there has been no improvement since I was diagnosed 11 years ago!

All I can say again is that I'm going to try.