After my last post I continued to have a really good day - for the first time I can ever remember I didn't have any chocolate at all. Friday however was a different story. I don't know why but there are some days where it doesn't matter how much I eat I am still hungry. I snacked all day at work and could tell my sugars were high (although I didn't test) as I was nearly falling asleep at my desk in the afternoon. It was a colleagues birthday and they had brought in chocolate chip cookies so I had a couple of those, another colleague was retiring and they were having a get together at lunch time and I ate more than I should have there and then we had a takeaway for tea. My insulin pump ran out just before I was going to bed and I was so tired I didn't change it before bed so I also had a whole night without the insulin I should have.
I am still feeling motivated with all your support but it's so hard. I haven't tested my sugars at all today either but haven't had such a bad day food wise.
When I listed my goals in my first post these are all the goals I want to achieve long-term not all at once. However I think I am trying to concentrate on too many things and getting a bit overwhelmed. It's difficult to decide what I should tackle first though because what I eat will affect my sugars but if I don't measure my sugars I don't know how it's affecting them.
I think for now I will just concentrate on taking my blood sugars and I am starting small so for this week I am promising you all that I will test my blood sugar levels at least once a day.
Now for the very scary bit for me - I said in my previous post that I would weigh myself and then publish on here how much I weigh - well yesterday morning I weighed 222.8 pounds. I will try and weigh myself every Friday but at this moment my goal is not to lose weight but just to try and eat a little healthier.
If anyone has any suggestions or motivational words they'd be appreciated.